Already?

Already, I’ve been struggling.  The transition to my new job hasn’t been easy; I’ve been feeling lonely, bored, and insecure.   Also poor … did I mention I took a substantial pay cut to work an average of 10 hours more per week then I was? 

Anyway, it has been really challenging for me to stick to my guns on the healthy lifestyle thing.  I haven’t found a workout routine, and my diet has been shit.  I’m still smoking.  All of this has been feeding into my self-doubt which only makes me feel more insecure, etc.

Motivation is something everyone struggles with, and I know I need to face it head on.  I need to search for inspiration.  I need to design a routine and stick to it.  I need to keep pushing.  As my hero the Dalai Lama says, “Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.”

I know my happiness is in my own hands, and I’m determined to find it.  I know that a healthy body only aids my pursuit of a healthy mind, and so I’m not giving up.